Deal with It…

 

“When you are angry, don’t let that anger make you sin,” and don’t stay angry all day. Don’t give the devil a way to defeat you (Ephesians 4:26-27).

It is never going to be easy to deal with anger, but it is something that needs to be done. Acknowledge that’s there; dig deep down to the roots of the anger, dig it up from beneath the layers of denial and deal with it. It may seem “unchristian-like” to be indignant, so you’ve become a professional at suffering from animosity with grace. Usually, when we can’t seem to get over rejection, heartache, or pain; anger is the root of the problem.

Anger has been festering at your wound for a very long time. Now it the time to heal that nasty wound. You are tired of being hurt. You no longer want to be vulnerable and exposed.

Yes!! it is not a sin to be mad or upset, but it is a sin to let anger fester into resentment, bitterness, or destructive rage.

 

Dear Father,

Please help us to deal with it. We know that if it is not of you, it is not welcome in your house and we need to get rid of it. Help us to promote a clean house for you to dwell in, Oh Lord! A house where you can rest, and be at peace. A house where the devil would not be able to survive in. Thank you Father, for showing us how the right path and it’s through your word. Anger will no longer cause suffering, heartache and pain, because I’m just going to deal with it.

A Small Revelation…

Morning, I was reading something today that truly blessed me… Proverbs 4:25 “Keep your eyes on the path, and look straight ahead”…

Words that seem so simple, but truly hold meaning in our daily lives. Sometimes, we as humans, forget to look forward… We always want to look back, pick up stuff that we let go, and never seem to forget it… We let it go for a reason, so why is it that we are always looking back? God has something for all of us, especially me…. I’m tired of looking behind me… I declare today that I’m going to keep my eyes on the path and Trust God as I move forward. Some says it’s easier said than done… Well, this may be true but when you really want to live in peace, you will make the conscious decision to do just that. When you get sick; of being sick and tired, you will do just that… I know that I haven’t lived the most perfect life, and quite frankly, I don’t know anyone who have, (so if there is anyone that you know that have, then I would like to shake their hand)… But I do know what’s in my heart, and it’s nothing malicious, by far, I’m filled with love… Just as God intended me to be… He wants us to love, live in peace, forgive and believe… I will take my chances on God before I look back again… So remember all my family and friends, make the conscious decision to “Keep your eyes on the path, and look straight ahead” Your victory awaits You!

 

AMEN!!!

Memoir of a Woman Gone Mad!!

Dear Diary:

As I sit up late at night, asking God what in the world is going on with my life. Where did I go wrong? How did it end up like this?

You see, I always seem to have it together; always. When I do things, people make the assumption that I have it like that, but in all reality, I don’t. I don’t have fiddle squat. I have a beautiful heart, a very intellectual mind and a bad attitude. I like making the world see me as this superwoman, because that I feel I am. But the world doesn’t know that I cry every single night, because no one truly loves me, no one genuinely cares for me but my God and my daughter. My mother, sisters and brother, I know they love me too, and for the most part, my family; and Hell, sometimes I question their love for me too. LOL!! But I know, I serve a merciful God, he loves me in spite of me.

You see as I walk this new walk, I realize that my life is not going to be the same again. No more business as usual. I see things differently. I even want to act different. Sometimes when I even think of things that are not of God, I feel bad just for thinking it.  It seems crazy but there are so many things that I need to cleanse myself of, I know that it’s not an overnight purge, but it will definitely be a well needed colon cleanse. No, spiritual cleanse. Now it’s not just my body being transformed, but it’s my mind that is being transformed.

You see, I have recently decided to help young teen girls in my community by developing a teen empowerment program. Thanks to my very loving, caring, intellectual and might I add spoiled daughter, I have given up all my Saturdays to be with very rude, obnoxious but teen girls with plenty of potential. We talk, we laugh, we learn and we build healthy relationships. For some of these young ladies, this program would probably be the only positive thing they would encounter in their life, at the rate the society is going. But anyway, as I sit and think of all the positive elements of love and life, I can instill in my young ladies. I must remember that I too can use a dose of my own medicine.

How can I instill greatness into young teen girls and still have pity on myself? Nope, that is not an option. Who would have thought that as I try to better my young ladies, the therapy that was much-needed for me, is being performed too, who knew? I’ve come to the realization that this was God creative plan all along. He seems to always get his point across, by showing me my purpose through my daughter. LOL!! That seem to have been the only reason, I had to have her when I did. You see, I have lost quite a few children in my life and she was the only one that made it through. She walked into my life and gave my life a purpose, just as I was about to give up on life. Here she comes!! I tell you, my daughter is and will always be considered in my mind, my guardian angel.

You see, as long as I align my steps in my life according to my developing her into a virtuous woman, my life has a purpose. Just like the birth of SC Precious Jewels, the birth of SC Precious Jewels became the rebirth of me. That is my purpose, it will be my legacy.

But just like any great thing that has entered our realm of life; you have the naysayers, and the dream killers coming along to crush your dreams. I never really had a dream until now; I had little goals that I needed to accomplish in my life, but never really a dream. I work all day, just to survive but never dreamed. Like, I mentioned earlier, it goes back to people assuming that I have it together. That’s because I strive to accomplish my many little goals, but never once did I accomplish that big dream.

Since there is a first time for everything, I would like the world to sit back, relax and enjoy my journey to my greatest accomplishment in life, my dream. I would like to take you on the journey with me, the roller coaster ride, the emotions, determination and the will to survive and become something great because I feel that is my purpose in life.

My grandmother always used to tell me that I was a force to be reckoned with. I am supposed to be great, if I didn’t get my priorities in order, my daughter would leave me behind. This was her message to me, from the first day she laid eyes on my daughter, and so far all that she has said has come true. Even when I’m down, I hear her yelling at me, for this I’m grateful.

I’m grateful to have wonderful people in my life; and grateful for the people who are not so wonderful. I’ve noticed that they are my reminders, so I do need them.

You see, one thing that I always hear my Pastor preach, everything in our life is only for a season. Once that season changes, all those in it has to go too. I feel like my season is about to change.

Respectfully,

Memoirs of a Woman Gone Mad!!

 

 

 

My Love Prayer…

“Give all your worries to him, because he cares for you.”(1 peter 5:7)
” Though he may stumble, he may not fall, for the Lord upholds him with his hand”(psalm 37:24)

Thank you Lord for being concerned about everything that goes on in my life, Good, bad, pretty or ugly. Knowing that you are the living God, who can do all things; I need not to worry. You will lift me up if ever I fall. You will carry me if ever I can’t carry myself. So for this, I thank you. All the worries of the world, I leave it all to you. So you can continue to bring peace, love and joy to those whom I love the most (my precious family) and to those whom I don’t know at all. You are my guide; so my feet shall not slide.

I pray this prayer to you for me and my family. 2016 is the year of Love… In Jesus name I pray… AMEN

I BELIEVE

Years ago when I was young,  I believed in the morning sun.

When it rises I was at peace,

Despite all the anger and turmoil that eventually created a beast.

 

Time moved on and life has taken effect;

I clinched at the sight of people and their many antics.

My family were my keepers and I was theirs,

We loved and we fought but still remains, they were my all and my everything.

Life became harsh and crueler by the day

But I still believed that as the sun arised, I will be okay.

Then the most amazing thing appeared. I became the mother of this precious teddy bear.

She gave me hope, she built my pride

I began to see life clearer as the sun continues to rise…

Trials and tribulations are going to come;

It’s how you handle them that matters, at least for some.

GOD knew I was on a road to destruction,

So HE sent me an angel to tell me something…

“Take a minute, my child. Stop and breath. I had a problem because you stopped believing in me. No matter what happens in life, look at the rising sun, through its rays and light I will bring you peace and eternal comfort.”

My daughter, I see!! Became the person who reminded me to believe.

“Mommy, look at the birds in the sky. Mommy, look at how the sun is so high. Mommy, smell the flowers in the rose bush ahead. Where do it come from? How did it all get here?”

Before I understood the creator of the Earth, I believed HE moved gracefully among us.

So I said, “HE is the Father of all things. The King of all Kings. HE is the reason why you are here. HE is the reason I have no fear.”

From that day forth, I understood why when the sun arose I was at peace and I was all good.

The moment I gave that up. Life obstacles began to turn me into dust.

My GOD… HE heard my cry and gave me reason to rise!!

My daughter gave me life. My daughter gave me breath.

I vowed to never let life take away my peace ever again.

Today, Life happens… It’s inevitable!!

But I truly believe… I truly have faith…

I trust My GOD will always be leading the way!!!

Power of Forgiveness…

What does it feel like to have the power to forgive?

Does it feel like joy dancing around in your heart?

Does it feel like waves soaring in the ocean breeze?

What does it feel like to have the power to forgive?

Because I surely don’t know what that is.

What does… what does it feel like to have the power to forgive?

To forgive thy mother whose harsh and cruel words

 sometimes slit your throat, and stopped you from breathing

But those same words were your motivation;

Yet she loved like no other… Unconditional love.

To forgive thy father who left you in this relentless world;

To be raised, when in fact he should have done it himself,

Yet he has taught you so many lessons… lessons on life and survival.

What does it feel like to forgive the people in the street?

After they have chased you and beat you

and transformed you into a heartless woman,

All because you don’t follow the status quo.

Your name means more than who you are as a person.

What does it feel like to forgive… forgive anyone and anything?

That deemed it necessary to take a piece of you…

With every debilitating stare, words from a violent tongue,

With every pulsating blow right to the head,

With every knife that pierced your little body…

They took a piece of you and diminished  you to nothing…

What does it feel like?

They know not what they do, they had no way of understanding.

It was all that they knew how to do and that’s survive.

So how do you forgive?

How do you open up your heart, when there is nothing left but a brick wall,

How do you love your child when there’s convictions of what true love really is,

I know my mother loves me. I know my father loves me.

But God bless the child who carries its own…

I’m at the place right now, where I have to carry my own.

God is staring me in my face,

Speaking ever so clearly… “I’m here, I’m here My child, I’m here.

Accept me. Believe me. Trust me. I’ve always carried you through.

I’ve carried you through the times when you thought no one was there.

When no one was listening, watching or staring you in the face.

I’ve carried you through the times when your heart was so broken,

And the pain was so intense, you thought that life wasn’t worthy of your presence.

I was there My child to pick up off the floor  when you were stomped down. So you see, I’ve always been there even when you had no knowledge of who I was.

The abuse. The turmoil. The confusion. The defeat. Yes! I’ve been through it all with you. I was the one that gave you the strength to carry you through.

Speaking on your behalf  when you had no knowledge of who I am.”

God is staring me in my face, telling me to forgive myself.

“You couldn’t change the environment that you were in, but I’m telling you now to change the mindset that you have! You know better now! You know me!

Oh how awesome is our God!!!

It is so powerful to be able to forgive.

 

I forgive. I forgive myself…

I forgive myself for allowing my Self to beat up on myself for so many years. For the choices that I’ve chosen to make, knowing that they were the choices that I shouldn’t have made. For allowing myself to be used and abused. For allowing myself to be played for a fool.

I forgive myself for being a victim in my world of convictions.

For not standing up and declaring my own victory. I forgive myself!

Oh God, I thank You!!! I thank You for allowing me to say that I forgive myself. I couldn’t have made it without You, without releasing the burdens of my soul. Thank You for being a merciful God!

I couldn’t go any further if I couldn’t forgive myself.

How could I seek the ultimate kingdom if I couldn’t love myself?

How could I love another if I couldn’t help myself?

I stand today to release Boo-bie.

Boo-bie was my savior,

Boo-bie can rest and its time for Na-Tasha to Rise!

The power of forgiveness…

The power of forgiveness puts joy in your heart!

The power of forgiveness puts peace in your mind!

The power of forgiveness puts serenity in your world!

OH WOW!!! This is the feeling of forgiveness.

I rejoice! I rejoice! I rejoice! because I forgive.

I love! I’ve conquered!!!

What a joy, To embrace the power of forgiveness!

 

Rise Up!! Soldier Girlz… Rise Up!

Rise Up!! Soldier Girlz… Rise Up!

Stand your position. It’s time to stand your ground!

You have been called to do a duty.

You have been called to war.

No more hiding behind the walls,

While the army is on the battlefield!

Rise up!! Soldier Girlz… Rise Up!

Stand your position. It’s time to stand your ground!

If you can’t stand up for what you believe in, then who do you stand for?

If you can’t run with the footmen,

Then the horses we will never endure.

YOU STAND FOR STRENGTH.

YOU STAND FOR TOGETHERNESS.

YOU STAND FOR UNITY.

YOU ARE ONE.

You are called to place on a shield of armor,

And into the battle you shall go!

You are built to endure hardships and pain;

You are built to cry, pray, wail and fast until the angels’ swarm.

Rise Up!! Soldier Girlz… Rise Up!

Stand your position. It’s time to stand your ground!

No more hiding behind the hedges waiting this battle out.

It’s time to go to war. Leave no soldier girlz behind.

No more wrestling with insecurities, you’re going to shoot those suckers out.

No more stealing your confidence and joy.

You’re going to fight for everything that the devil tried to steal from you.

The Lord says, “Trust in the Rock of Zion, and you shall never be disappointed.”

Hold on to His word. Hide it in your heart. Live the life of righteousness.

The devil will fall apart!

You were built for this battle! You were built for this war!

Just put on the armor of righteousness; And into the battle you go!!!

Rise Up!! Soldier Girlz… Rise Up!

The Power of Love

How many of you have been to a place where you feel your significant other is the best thing that ever happened to you? But OH!!! How they get on your nerves sometimes. It’s funny, but I believe many of us, feel that way about our significant others. . Some of our better halves are so helpful, or not at all. Some can be so romantic, or don’t have a clue what romance is. All we know is, their mine and I love them with all my heart. They may not be perfect for anyone else. As long as they’re perfect for me.

I say all of that, because my relationship with my husband, is quite awkward. Genuine love, but definitely an awkward type of love. You see, my husband is a laid back, calm, cool, and collective kind of guy… But He can burst like a firecracker, at the most inopportune moments! Unlike his wife, who is kindhearted, fun, and outgoing, but would bust your bubble whenever it needs to be busted, and won’t be ashamed about it. I have no filter for my mouth! Which makes us the perfect couple! We complement each other in every way. For this, I love him with all my heart, he is the only one that can keep me calm and make me laugh when I want to rip someone’s head off! Yet, he knows just what buttons to push to make me crazy. What a crazy thing called love!

Love makes you do the craziest things. It gives you butterflies in your stomach. It makes your gray skies turn blue. It gives you light at night which makes the moonlight shine very bright… Oh! That crazy thing called love makes you feel like you are in heaven, when you are probably living in hell. There is nothing in this world that can change your mind about love, once you are in love. Ladies and Gents, you know what I’m talking about. I love being in love! Life never seems so hard, when you have someone you love to share it with.

Just like yesterday, I think it was the worst day of my life. I was feeling like the world was over, and my life was about to be end because my husband and I were upset with each other. It seems like I couldn’t function. I couldn’t think straight. Why couldn’t he understand that I’m there for him always?! He’s probably thinking she doesn’t get my point. She’s trying to make me feel less of a man. Then he came to terms that I’m wasn’t there to hurt him or make him feel less of a man. He understood that I love him more than life itself because he continued to shower me with his love, even after our bad disagreement, we both came to terms that our union was a union orchestrated by God himself. He realized that life will never be the same without me in his world. Just as I realized that life would never be the same without him in my world. God placed us together for all the right reasons, so no man shall tear that apart. To have that kind of love is phenomenal! To have a love that is spiritually in tune is amazing!!. These are the powers of love!!!

Love is so powerful, you rejoice when the devil tries to attack you. Love is so powerful, no obstacle is too hard for you to handle. Love is so powerful, it seems as if you’re walking on water when there is nowhere else for you to go. Oh my! Love is so powerful!!!

One day I was sitting at the beach. Most people who know me, know that the beach is my favorite place to be. Water is my inspiration. So, my husband loves to take me there any and every chance he gets. Usually when we get there, we stroll alongside the water and listen to the waves against the shore. I tell him what the water is saying to me at that moment, and he listens tentatively, grasping on to my every word. But on this particular day, I couldn’t walk for some reason, so we sat against the shoreline. My husband laid down and I leaned against his chest and I began to write what the water was saying to me at that time. Suddenly, this older lady came strolling alongside the shoreline. She looked at me and smiled. She continued to walk, and you can tell that she too was enjoying the voices that speak from the water. She turned back around, and in the sweetest, melodic voice I’ve ever heard, said “Young love, I love to see two people in Love. Is that your husband? He must have been tired. He is resting so peacefully.” I turned my head to look. Yes, he was sound asleep like a little baby. I chuckled, I was so engulfed in my writing, I never realized he went to sleep. I responded softly, “Yes ma’am, this is my husband. I didn’t realize he went to sleep. I guess I should get him home.” “No dear, Let him rest.” She said. “This soothing atmosphere put him to sleep. His lioness is at work. He is safe with you. That’s why I said, I love to see two people in love. You see, a man will never be at peace, if he has no one he can trust. A man will never settle and step up if he has no one to confide in that he trusts. A man will never give any relationship his all if he doesn’t have the right woman that will support him, guide him, lift him up when he is down, confide in and trust. You see, I walk up and down the streets often. I love to see what the world has to offer now, which don’t seem to be much, but every now and again I pass by two people who are truly in love and it makes my heart skip a beat. Love is powerful young lady. It is strong. It is wise. It is encouraging and above all, it comes solely from GOD. You could never truly understand love, if you don’t know GOD. We, as humans, need to get back to that place, where we know GOD; so we can know what love, generosity and grace really is.” I suddenly was engulfed by her every word. I guess this is the feeling that my husband feels when he listens to me alongside the shoreline. I wanted her to speak forever so I asked her kindly, “Would you like to take a load of those little legs and have a seat with me?” She smiled, at that moment I realized she was the prettiest, little black lady I’ve ever seen. She had such smooth brown skin, pretty teeth, lovely smile, and an angelic face. She stood no taller than 4’11. She said, “No dear, I can’t sit down. My old bones won’t make it up if I do and I have a little more walking to do. I just wanted to stop and commend you on a job well done. You seem like a loving young lady, a great mother, and a woman who strives for excellence. I know we aren’t perfect beings, but you seem to strive and thirst to live in righteousness.” At that time, I looked at her kind of funny because now she’s speaking as if she knows me. So I asked, “I’m sorry. But have we met before?” She said, “I’ve met you once, but I had to go and you never got to see me again. But I have been watching you my dear. I’ve watched you transform and become the loving woman that you are right now. I thought it was the right time, since I had the opportunity to see you again. You are on the right path. Faith has gotten you this far. Continue to walk by Faith. You are surrounded by a lot of angels! They are forever protecting you. Continue to be the rock for the family and for the community. This is who you are. Sometimes it seems hard, but GOD has your back. Your husband has your back, as you have his. I have to go now. Continue to remember that Love is of GOD. You two are a beautiful couple.” It seemed as if she was about to cry. I asked if everything was OK. She spoke softly, “I’m OK now. I’ve always been worried about Junior, but he has you now. You balance him out. You will keep each other encouraged. You both will keep the children encouraged so I’m OK now.” I looked surprised and asked “Ma’am, do you know my husband?” She smiled slyly, “I’ve known him all his life. Just do me a favor. I know you love those kids, so don’t ever stop being who you are with them. They will thank you later. GOD only knows they’re situation with their mother isn’t right. And Continue to watch over my Junior for me.” I turned to wake my husband up because I swear I never met this lady before. But when my husband awoke, she was gone. I never got to see where she went. It was the strangest thing. I’m babbling on to my husband on what just happened, what she said. What she called him. He looked at me as if I was crazy. How can a little old lady just disappear in thin air? He laughed at me. I was appalled that he thought I was bugging out. He decided it was time to take me home. I needed to rest. I was determined I wasn’t going home until I saw this lady again. So now I’m up and down the beach with my husband looking for this little lady. Just my luck, I didn’t find her! So I was disappointed that I couldn’t redeem myself from looking crazy. We were leaving the beach, and I looked up at the moonlight and just at that moment I saw this beautiful white dove, “Look Honey!!” I pointed and screamed with enthusiasm. “Look at the beautiful white dove! I’ve never seen a dove at night before,” He looked in the sky and smiled. He said, “I’ve never seen a white dove at night either, but it feels good to know that an angel is protecting us” I looked puzzled, so he continued to say, “A white dove is a symbol of an angel from heaven looking upon you. I hope that’s my mama looking on us. I really wish you could have spent some time with her. She would really like you.” And he laughed, “You are a piece of art that she would have loved to watch be created.” I cried. At that moment, I understood who that beautiful older lady was on the beach, and I began to cry more. “Honey, I think she has expressed all she needed to say to me today.” And we went home in perfect peace.

At that very moment, the alarm woke me up for work and I cried again. This time tears of joy. My husband who was already dressed for work, asked me what was wrong. I knew he was late so I just told him that I loved him and to go to work. Everything was OK. I just had a very emotional dream. He gave me a kiss and left to start his day. I couldn’t move to start my day so I prayed and I thanked God for His mercy and grace over our lives. Then I thanked my mother-in-law for being our guardian angel. It felt so good to know she approved of me. That was something that I always worried about, but GOD sent me the answer that I was seeking. Love is such a powerful thing that your guardian angel would come down to earth to deliver you a message of peace and prosperity.

These are the Power of Love…

THIS MEANS WAR!!

Angel Warrior…

Arise My daughter. You stand now!

There is no time to keep your head down.

I’ve given you a message. Now you must receive!

All the promises that I’ve made to you each and every year…

You are ordained My warrior!

One of the pillars of My plan!

When you all finally come together,

It will be something miraculous, unknown to any man.

Arise My daughter. You stand now!

There is no longer time to keep your head down!

I’ve spoken! Now you shall receive.

You’ve been obedient and you’ve believed.

You walked on faith, a path to you unknown.

Now use all of your obstacles as your stepping stone.

Come fight the war! Fight all the way through!

Yes! Your TESTs are TESTimonies

But, they are a little bit more for you.

They are your armor of God and a part of My Glory!

It’s your victory and no one else’s story.

You are ordained My warrior!

The war is about to begin.

Be ready for the attack, but be ready for the win!

 

NOBODY’s FOOL

As a young girl, I continuously despised people and nobody could understand why. Not even I understood why I always wanted to fight. I just didn’t like people who displayed a bunch of foolishness.

If you tried to bully me… we were fighting!

If you disrespected my mother or grandmothers… we were fighting!

If you tried to bully my sisters and brother… we were fighting!

Depending on the day, if you looked at me too hard… we were fighting!

It didn’t matter what size you were, or if it was more than one of you… we were fighting!

This went on for many years until one day, an elderly Guyanese woman looked at me and stated, “You are nobody’s fool!!! So why are you making a jackass of yourself???” At first, I laughed. Then I asked her if she knew my grandmother, because that woman was forever telling me that. Then she said so seriously, “No! But your grandmother must speak to GOD.” I stopped and paused almost in disbelief. I knew my grandmother believed in GOD, but actually talk to him? It never dawned on me that could be possible. Being the ignorant woman that I was I replied, “No! she can’t be talking to GOD! If she did and she loved me, I wouldn’t be cursed!”  What I heard next resonated in my mind and spirit for the rest of my days. I couldn’t have known that the words I was about to hear would be my blessing. This elderly Guyanese woman said, “Your grandmother is a blessed woman! she prays for you daily. But you… young lady are not cursed. You are truly blessed as well. You are going to be a victor who breaks all generational curses. You are the oldest and the wisest of them all. You will set the precedence for the rest of the family. All who truly love you from near and far will listen. They will come to hear you speak life into them.”

At that very moment, the tears began to flow down my cheeks. For the first time, I was crying and they were not tears of pain, but tears of joy. How could anyone speak so highly to me? A young woman that was torn and scarred, but this stranger who knew nothing of my tainted past, and was speaking life into me. My grandmother always preached prosperity into my life, but that was what loving grandmothers were supposed to do, or so I thought. “Oh… that’s just grandma talking! That’s her job.” But then to have this elder speak the same words of encouragement, words of life, words of belief, and words of hope was simply amazing. I guess GOD is truly real. But why? Why did I feel so much anguish? So much hurt and so much pain? I couldn’t help but to ask this. Through the tears I asked, “Why am I so broken?” It was at that moment the truth was about to be my salvation. I was about to be set free! She said, “GOD comes to heal the broken. It’s not the righteous, HE seeks, it is the unrighteous. They are the ones that can show HIS miracles well. He wants the murderers. The thieves. The adulterers and the prostitutes. They are the ones who will spread HIS WORD victoriously, because they will always remember where HE brought them from. Don’t you praise the doctors when you are sick and they heal you? That is GOD to us. HE is our provider. Our mind regulator. Who can say that better than the person HE has healed? Who can say that better than the person HE picked up off the street and made them whole again? This is why you are broken! So when HE fixes you, you know exactly who to thank.”

The tears were flowing more rapidly. It was as if a new found spirit entered my soul. I was no longer crying tears of guilt or defeat. They were tears of hope. At that very moment I knew I had a reason to live. This elderly Guyanese woman changed my whole outlook on life, with her words of hope, her words of peace and prosperity. From that day forth, she has always been a special part of my day until the day she died.

 

But how many of you know that GOD is so good? After this lovely soul left us peacefully and went to her heavenly home; One year later I gave birth to her great granddaughter. The spirit of this lovely Guyanese woman remained with me forever; in the life of my precious little girl. My daughter truly resembles her great grandmother in mind, body and soul. Our family is truly blessed to live with granny’s spirit just a little while longer.

 

Thank you Lord for letting me know that I’m NOBODY’s FOOL, Thank you for helping me to stop making a jackass out of myself!!!